Worried

Walking to the briefing class for intern, with a nervous feeling. My feeling came out one by one,with worry,happy, surprised,blur and nervous.After the briefing for the industrial training (internship), I was like worried,worry that where I work for. Magazines agency or newspaper agency?I really scared that I doesn't know where I go, where I should go.

Sometimes, I ask myself. Did I take the wrong course? Or can I really be a journalist? I don't expect to be a popular writer or what, it just that I wan do thing that different from others. I couldn't sit in the office, 9am-5pm work. I can die of bored =.=

Some people will think that what am I writing...but for me, I just can write out what I feel. Sometimes there is a thing that I couldn't say it out. If I wan write, I will, and depends on my mood. I ask myself what I can do..but I couldn't answer it.My friends always say that "I'm so quiet,should u be a journalist?" I can't answer that. Do be a journalist have to be talkative? I don't expect myself to be a journalist, but I do like to write. I write not for a news, but the feeling that came out from my heart, my opinion,my feeling,my disagreement.

Oh yes, I do scared about my intern.I wan go to news agency.But sometimes luck is not by my side. i can only except what I was given. There is always a chance for me... a chance for me to do whatever I like. Without disagreement by others people.

If I was given a chance, I really hope that I can get more freedom, to travel as long as I like, to go anywhere that I like. To gain more experience and be independent.. =)

My new hair style~

Haha.... I just cut my hair on Sunday with my friend. Haiz...my long hair become so short.. until i so sad with it. It seems like my hair so messy, couldn't comb it well. I looks like a secondary girl or a teenage girl.. doesn't look like I'm 21 years old. Forever young...haha

But, I feel sad with my friend hair. Her hair so long, need to cut until so short because of the irresponsibility of the saloon.They curl her hair until like a burning hair and it looks so worse. Until I feel like want the saloon to close down.Now her hair shorter than me, the first time.

Anyway, this is the chance for us to change new style.haha.... think positively to make us more happy. We are not just accept what were given, but think the good than bad.

Again.....argh

My third week holiday... class will start next week. I feel so nervous, like just started to study. Oh ya, still got one week, one week for me to play and enjoy as long as I wan. If not, later busy with assignment, going to die liao. haha.... I need to chase back my CGPA...so need to study harder.

In this three weeks holiday, I really like nothing to do. I feel lost, I not understand myself... I dunno what I'm doing...I dun have any direction.. what I need.. I just sitting in home, in front of the computer, playing games, chatting, dreaming or even watching television. Oh my....what I do in this holiday is really lazy and useless.

I feel no freedom, being scold by mom and sister, saying that I should not play computer so much.Haiz.... I really hate it. It's non of their business as long as I can take care myself, do all the work that they ask me do. Everyday, when my sister came back from work, she will scold me and ask me turn off the computer. What I feel is, PLEASE SHUT YOUR MOUTH!!!! I can do what I wan, not being control by you. I'm quite stubborn, if you ask me do something that I sun like, I will not do it. I won't follow except that I wan to do it.

I really hope I can get a labby... so I can use as long as I wan... no need to fight with them to use it. haha.... really hope can get one.

What a Bad Day....

Oh gosh, it's it a bad day today? As I feel so.... all the things that I do, make me angry and frustrated. Seems that it was a hard day for me, for me to feel unlucky.Why? Why all the thing begin like this? Why I'm the only one to blame? Why I'm the only one to scolded? Tell me...

Not only that, I also not feeling well, getting sort throat and headache. I really doesn't know what had happen to me in this few days. Keep crying, scolding people,make harassment and all the bad thing I do to make people angry and scolding me.I feel like I'm sick of it!! I was thinking of commit suicide, to end my life as well but I cannot. I still young and many things I still need to do.I wan to enjoy my life, my study,my work,my parents, my friends and be loved by everyone....

Everything I done is not what I expected. Life is so difficult. Please give me some guide to continue my journey.............

One Flaw in Women II

Women,
they don't take "no" for an answer
but believe there is a better solution
their hearts break when a friend dies
they grieve at the loss of a family member,
yet they still strong when they
think there is no strength left
the heart of a woman is how
they bring joy, hope and love
women have vital things to say
and everything to give.....



HOWEVER, IF THERE IS ONE FLAW IN WOMEN, IT IS THAT THEY FORGET THEIR WORTH.

One Flaw In Women l

Women,

have strengths that impress men
they maintain hardships and carry their burdens,
but they hold happiness, love and joy
they smile when they want to scream
they sing when they want to cry
they cry when they are happy
and laugh when they are nervous

First time...

My first time to drop an ink to my new blog...just deleted the previous one of some technical problem. I'm quite a lazy girl to write, but this few days I feel like writing. My heart become more comfortable after write something, things that I could not tell from my mouth, to my family and my friends. Just say some intro before I start my grandma stories. Haha......


oh ya.. my English language is not so good... do correct me if I'm wrong =)