Finally... I did It!

I'm so relaxing and happy on what I did!

It's Time to Change

I do not know how to write.
I do not know what to write.
I do not know what I'm writing.
Am I losing interest in writing? What happen to me?

It about six months I have graduate. Am I jobless? Yes! For the past two months. And now, I'm working, is it a good new? Many people thinks that fresh grads are jobless and choosy to get a job. If a fresh grads already got a job, it means awesome! But what if the job is not your interest? Do you really like what you are doing now?

The answers is NO! I HATE MY JOB!

For the past few months I have been working, working in a industry that I do not know anything, not my interest at all. For the first time I start my job, I really think that I can love my job. I'm putting all my efforts on what I'm doing, but seems that my effort is not enough to satisfy my boss. What I'm doing is not right and keep scolding by her like a dog. Okay fine. I can 'tahan' of her because she is pregnant. But, it getting worse for the past two weeks. She keeps on asking me to do things that I really don't know and scolding my for not put more efforts to learn. Keeps telling me that 'I'm slow in work', ask me to work faster. I was so angry of myself hearing this. Blaming myself, why I'm not a supergirl with eight hands to 'faster' my work. She always compare my to another new girl, saying that she work more efficient than me. Of course she is efficient, she just doing 1 part of the job for the whole day. What she's doing is just calling the agents and ask them to pay the money. I also doing the same thing like her before she join our department, ( not only calling but also handling calls form the agents and also do frachaise work), but the lady boss says ' why you are doing this for the whole day? Am I hire you just to do this? Oh my, when I heard this, I was so angry and feel that she treat the new staff better than me.

I still remember, last two weeks, she had scolded my till my tear came out. I feel really upset that time. I do not know who I can talk to. I do not know what I'm suppose to do. Who are my friends? Who I can trust? Who are willing to listen to my words? I'm crying on the way going back home because I can't hold my tears. I was thinking why I'm the one?

After I had work for the past three months, I found myself lost interest in writing. I doesn't want to live like this. Everyday working the same thing and scolding by the boss. My emotions is getting worse, feel like wanna cry the whole time. Nowadays, whenever I saw my boss, I feel traumatic and scared, because I don't know when she is yelling at me.

I can feel that I'm losing my confident of what I'm doing.
I feel that I'm living in a world that scared of everything.
I don't even can smile like old days thinking of her.
My heart full with tears....

I was thinking to resign my job and start a new job. I wanted to continue my interest in writing and taking photography. I doesn't want to let go my interest so easily. I can't tahan being scold by her anymore.

The best way to build back myself is to gain back my confident.
I know what I should do.
I should become myself and gain back my confident.

I should not just only saying, but taking the first step is the most important part.


God Bless Me!

*I hope that one day, I can fulfill my dreams, to go around the world and taking photography of children smile.

Xin Tiao

想跟我吵架 我没那麽无聊

不懂得道歉 我没那麽聪明

好想要回到我们的原点


你又在哭泣 我给不了安慰

我又在摇头 有那麽点後悔

爱情的发展已难以回头却无法往前走


但身不由己出现在胸口 两颗心能塞几个问号

爱让我们流多少眼泪


你的眼神充满美丽带走我的心跳

你的温柔如此靠近带走我的心跳

逆转时光到一开始 能不能给一秒

等着哪一天你也想起

那悬在记忆中的美好

English Lyrics
You want to argue with me. Im not that bored.
I apologize without understanding. Im not that bright.
I desire to go back to where we began.

You are crying again. I fail to give you comfort.
Im shaking my head again (disapproving of my actions), thats that much regret.
Loves progression makes it already hard to turn back, but Im unable to move on.

My body still wont leave because of what is currently in my chest. Two hearts can solve many problems.
How many tears has love made us shed?
Your eyes are brimming with beauty to carry away my heartbeat.
In this way, you draw closer to take away my heartbeat.
Time has turned back to the beginning. Can you give me a moment?

Im waiting for whatever day when you will also remember
That happiness hovering in your memories.

* Love this song very much! It is so nice.

TVB 41st Anniversary Awards Results

TVB Ceremony

Best Actor: Ha Yu Oh yea.. he deserve it. He is really good in 'Jo Ba' character in MR
Best Actress: Michelle Yim She as well. Her character evil ' Ah Hong' is very outstanding.

Best Supporting Actor: Wayne Lai Oh.. he doing well in Gentle Crackdown 2. I really like his acting now. His character in BSS also not bad.

Best Supporting Actress: Tavia Yeung Happy for her. She really deserve it. I like her acting in MR.. so good

Most Favorite Male Character & Popularity Award : Raymond Lam
Hehe.. yes Raymond... Support him

Most Favorite Female Character: Louise Lee Her character as 'Hor Ma' is pretty good.. but I prefer her as 'Dai Kai' but this also good.

Most Improved Actor: Wong Cho Lam
He is so cute as 'Lau Wah' in BSS.

Most Improved Actress: Nancy Wu
No comment because i did not watch 'Sorrow'.

Best Series: Moonlight Resonance

Yes...... this drama is awesome. Love this very much....

Lifetime Achievement Honour Award: Paul Chun

He deserve it... hehe

Fashion Attraction Award: Myolie Wu

I really doesn;t like Myolie actually. Don't know why she can get this award.

I took some photo from the KL Tower. It's been a long time that I did not take any photo. During that time, it started to rain heavily. Some photo's from the tower...


Hehe... nice bo? Those pictures are taken during and after raining...