Again.....argh

My third week holiday... class will start next week. I feel so nervous, like just started to study. Oh ya, still got one week, one week for me to play and enjoy as long as I wan. If not, later busy with assignment, going to die liao. haha.... I need to chase back my CGPA...so need to study harder.

In this three weeks holiday, I really like nothing to do. I feel lost, I not understand myself... I dunno what I'm doing...I dun have any direction.. what I need.. I just sitting in home, in front of the computer, playing games, chatting, dreaming or even watching television. Oh my....what I do in this holiday is really lazy and useless.

I feel no freedom, being scold by mom and sister, saying that I should not play computer so much.Haiz.... I really hate it. It's non of their business as long as I can take care myself, do all the work that they ask me do. Everyday, when my sister came back from work, she will scold me and ask me turn off the computer. What I feel is, PLEASE SHUT YOUR MOUTH!!!! I can do what I wan, not being control by you. I'm quite stubborn, if you ask me do something that I sun like, I will not do it. I won't follow except that I wan to do it.

I really hope I can get a labby... so I can use as long as I wan... no need to fight with them to use it. haha.... really hope can get one.